Category: Reflection
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为什么对一些朋友和网友的感情有了变化
我现在终于能够说清楚为什么对一个朋友以及一些网友的感情有些变化了。就是以前很喜欢他们的，也很愿意看他们说话、发东西，但是这几年慢慢觉得他们有了一些变化，好像不那么喜欢他们了。刚才跟这个朋友聊天，她说她现在和活人接触得少了，都是远程工作，对人类的包容性变得特别差，我才意识到这就是原因！这就是我不那么喜欢他们的原因。一点点小事就能激起来，说话一点点不对路就要去喷一喷，都不提站在对方情况考虑了，哪怕连单纯的闭嘴都做不到。
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Identity相关讨论
我觉得identity真的是个很神奇的东西。我现在当攀岩老师也有一年了，但是我并不认为自己【是个攀岩老师】，也就是说并没有任何身份上的认同感。一方面是因为这份工确实就只是个part-time，也没什么很特殊的门槛，另一方面也是因为我当初没有刻意努力很久去选择争取这份工，所以自然也就没什么attachment，只是觉得自己只不过是在做【教小孩攀岩这件事】罢了。
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Lack Interest in Other Humans
The past few days were kind of hot, with the highest temperature reaching 28 or 29 Celsius. But today is a cool summer day without a blazing sun, and I appreciate this weather.
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2024年总结及新年愿望的实现情况
今年年初的时候我曾经列过几个希望今年能够实现的愿望。今年快要结束了，回头去看这些愿望，大多数都实现了。没有实现的少数几个愿望也还在努力中。过去几年的年度总结我都是用回答Matters问卷的方式做的，今年改变一下，来一条条看看我最初许下新年愿望都实现得怎么样。
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Manipulators
So far, my December has been a little bit too out of control. First, I had almost started a small business with a habitual sex assaulter. Now, meaning in the past week, I was again gaslighted by a seemingly outstanding student. I’m not going to lie to you: being intentionally manipulated and gaslighted twice during…
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A False Opportunity
This past month has been an odd one. I almost thought I had gotten an opportunity to work, though it was not a real job. I thought I’d at least get some money and maybe would even be able to sustain myself in a year or two. But the opportunity turned out to be false,…
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Calibration
Reaching out to people, knowing how they are and what they are doing, to me, now, is not a means for friend-seeking. To a large extent, it is for calibration. To calibrate my position in the world with regard to other people. I don’t mean I will compare myself with other people, such as their…
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China Observation, Two
Whether I’m a highly sensitive person is something I have been debating with myself. I used to think I wasn’t that sensitive. I can go out, I can handle talking with strangers, I don’t like traffic jams but I can put up with them if I must. I know that I tend to keep my…
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China Observation, One
Long time no write. I thought I’d have to refill these fountain pens, but it turns out a little bit of hot water will do the trick. There’s still some in left, but the nib is slightly stuck. A dab in hot water and everything resumes fine.
Borderline Journey 