Borderline Journey

世界边上的广阔风景

  • 为什么对一些朋友和网友的感情有了变化

    我现在终于能够说清楚为什么对一个朋友以及一些网友的感情有些变化了。就是以前很喜欢他们的，也很愿意看他们说话、发东西，但是这几年慢慢觉得他们有了一些变化，好像不那么喜欢他们了。刚才跟这个朋友聊天，她说她现在和活人接触得少了，都是远程工作，对人类的包容性变得特别差，我才意识到这就是原因！这就是我不那么喜欢他们的原因。一点点小事就能激起来，说话一点点不对路就要去喷一喷，都不提站在对方情况考虑了，哪怕连单纯的闭嘴都做不到。

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  • Identity相关讨论

    我觉得identity真的是个很神奇的东西。我现在当攀岩老师也有一年了，但是我并不认为自己【是个攀岩老师】，也就是说并没有任何身份上的认同感。一方面是因为这份工确实就只是个part-time，也没什么很特殊的门槛，另一方面也是因为我当初没有刻意努力很久去选择争取这份工，所以自然也就没什么attachment，只是觉得自己只不过是在做【教小孩攀岩这件事】罢了。

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  • 2025年年终总结，攀岩篇

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    今年早些时候我大概有感觉到我从V4到V5所需要的时间应该比从V3到V4需要的时间短。现在回想起今年的情况，意识到这个感觉差不多是正确的。

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  • Lack Interest in Other Humans

    The past few days were kind of hot, with the highest temperature reaching 28 or 29 Celsius. But today is a cool summer day without a blazing sun, and I appreciate this weather.

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  • The Hottest Day Ever and More on Rock Climbing

    Yesterday was the hottest day since the beginning of this year (if not the hottest day ever in the history of this city). While driving back from work, the highest temperature recorded in the panel at the back of the steering wheel read “38°C.” I sat in the driver’s seat, trying my best to enduring both the unbearable heat and the grueling traffic at the same time, silently cursed all the autocrats in the world. Global warming may not be their making, but not acknowledging it, not facing it, and above all, not dealing it – these are absolutely their faults and crimes.

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  • Update

    实际上从二月初发生了一些事情以后我基本上就再也没有来这个博客写过任何东西，三月份那一篇只是特殊情况罢了。我知道讨厌的人，他们如果有合适的方式、合适的条件，就总能通过互联网找到他们想找的人，跟踪也好，视奸也好。这几个我一直没有在这里写任何东西，就是因为知道这个世界上有这样喜欢跟踪他人的讨厌的人。

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  • It’s Almost Spring

    The past three days have been too sunny, with the highest temperature floating around 15-16 Celsius, way above the usual average of 10. It hasn’t been raining either in the past days, so I’m not sure what will happen to the grass seeds I sowed. Let’s hope they will germinate. While I like sunshine, I think also it’s a bit too much.

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  • Oh, Well…

    If I had disliked kids, I wouldn’t have applied for a job that needed to work with kids every day. The fact is I don’t hate kids, though I do not feel an intimate draw from them as much as many other people do. I can interact with them well enough, especially if I’m their teacher. What I don’t enjoy is the adults who can’t stop showing the pictures of their kids to virtually everybody they meet in their lives.

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  • 2024年总结及新年愿望的实现情况

    今年年初的时候我曾经列过几个希望今年能够实现的愿望。今年快要结束了，回头去看这些愿望，大多数都实现了。没有实现的少数几个愿望也还在努力中。过去几年的年度总结我都是用回答Matters问卷的方式做的，今年改变一下，来一条条看看我最初许下新年愿望都实现得怎么样。

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  • Manipulators

    So far, my December has been a little bit too out of control. First, I had almost started a small business with a habitual sex assaulter. Now, meaning in the past week, I was again gaslighted by a seemingly outstanding student. I’m not going to lie to you: being intentionally manipulated and gaslighted twice during such a short period of time isn’t something I thought I’d experience. Yet here I am, start doubting my judgment.

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